Happy .... Just Happy !!

Posted by Malika

Yes .... after a long long time ... i feel really happy ... happy that ur there in my life ... happy that i can count on you for almost everything ... happy that i knw someone cares for me .. i know i m a jerk because i dont tell u how much i appreciate you being in my life ... but u accept me inspite of that .. i feel lucky .. really .. u make me happy and i pray to god that this feeling stays for a long time to come ...

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Life is fucking complicated for a woman

Posted by Malika

WTF do we women really want? No sex? No relationships? Kids? Marriage? Work? Biological systems? Sociological systems? What exactly is it that we are looking for? Forget about men, Will a woman ever know the answer to this or are we always going to hang around fucking our heads or just compromise on life taking it as it comes?

Life is fucking complicated for a woman.

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I'm the only one and I walk alone

Posted by Malika

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

I've been walking alone since quite a long time now... at times i wonder .. why .. scared of relationships ? afraid of commitments ? didn't find the right guy ? guess these are all excuses .. excuses which are ready when people ask me why ... did i always know the real reason .. or have i been trying to avoid it .. avoid thinking about it ...but will the truth change .. suddenly today it strikes me .. i m such a difficult person to be with .. i dont come across so .. so if u think about it .. u wud think i m just over thinking this ... but no ... i really am .. i know myself really well .. my mind is very very fickle .. i can think 2 extreme thoughts in a matter of 5 seconds .. suddenly i like someone .. and then the next moment i dont .. i do not expect anyone to understand all this .. the complicated mind that i have ... bear with it .. and still be happy being with me .. the package thats me .. has more bad things in than the good part.. atleast 1 thing is clear in my head ... i do not want to be in a relationship ... and i do not regret not being in 1 too..

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Psyched out. .

Posted by Malika

I think i am goin to die. . Die of this pain . . Cant take it any more. . Ive got a problem wid you . . You . . And you. . Why are you so stubborn. . Why cant you let go off that ego. . Why expect so much from me. . Why so mean thoughts abt me. Why dont you trust me. . I want to go. . Leave me alone everyone. . I am messed in da head. . Too many voices. . Bitchy. . Mean. . Kind. . Good. . Thats al me. . What do you see. .

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